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Wednesday, November 23, 2011

The D/A Monster

I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but when things go bad physically, things also go bad emotionally and spiritually. Everything falls out of balance at the same time.


On Monday, I was in the hospital for a couple of hours because of dehydration. Nothing major. They just hooked me up to an IV (which was the most challenging part of the whole visit - and I have the bruises to prove it) and pumped me full of fluids. But physically, I was (still am, off and on) feeling awful.


But the last few days, I've felt out of it emotionally and spiritually. Feeling physically awful leaves me feeling sad and emotionally inadequate, especially because it leaves D to carry so much of the weight. And then I start doubting my worth and merit as a wife and partner and as an individual and feel spiritally inadequate as well.


It's ineresting to me how difficult it is to obtain a balance between the three areas and how vitally important and interconnected they all are to each other. Feeling out of balance in one area suddenly brings into sharp focus where I'm lacking in the other two. And the only way to achieve balance again is to focus on all three areas, not just the inital "problem child." Which is difficult because I'm already feeling emotionally/physically/spiritually inadequate.


Does anyone else experience this same thing? What is the best way you've found to achieve balance again? (Other than self medicating with a Coca-Cola and peanut-butter M&M's.)

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

ZZZZzzzzzZZZZzzzzzz...

I am going to bed earlier and earlier every night.

Maybe it has something to do with daylight savings time? You know, since it gets dark earlier and what not.

Regardless, it's 10pm and I am going to bed.
And I don't have to wake up until 8am.

Yes, that's 10 hours of sleep.
And yes, I'll probably still go to bed at 10 (or earlier!) tomorrow.

No one told me that this is what being an adult was like!
I thought adults stayed up late partying and playing and watching the good TV shows!
Turns out, I'm a boring adult.

G'night!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Needy

I've been needy lately. Today was my day off (thank goodness) and it was very much needed.
D, because he is beyond amazing, took the day off too.
He has no idea how much I needed him today.

Without him, I would've sat on the couch all day, cried when I was hungry, slept on the couch when I was hungry instead of getting food, watched stupid stuff on Netflix, and been a grumpy hot mess.

Because of him, we got grocery shopping done (we haven't been grocery shopping since beginning of September - for reals), got him some new jeans, slept in, I ate 3 meals, dishes got done, food got prepped and stored and I am a happy kid.

Seriously, husband-man is the best man I know.
I owe him big time.

Thanks, D.

Monday, November 14, 2011

One of Those Days

Have you ever had the kind of day where you're feeling yucky and you get a case of the grumpies?

That's where I am today.


So, to combat the grumpies (and on a Monday no less!) I am going to try and focus on the positive and make a list of things to be happy about. Feel free, dear blog readers, to add to this list. :)




  1. Husband-man


  2. Puppy


  3. Apartment-home


  4. Car (custom body work and all)


  5. My job (even though it's one of the things bringing me down today, I'm still grateful to have a job)


  6. Husband-man's job


  7. My phone


  8. Texting with my dad


  9. The sun is shining


  10. Doing theatre!


  11. Great friends


  12. Hot showers


  13. Comfy bed (oh, how I wish I was there right now...)


  14. Netflix


  15. My TV and Couch


  16. Target


  17. Family


  18. Good books


  19. Reading scriptures with husband-man every night


  20. Laughing

It has taken me hours to come up with this list, but this is what I've got today! Now I'll just be over here reciting those 20 things over and over and over and over and...


Monday, November 7, 2011

Quick Trip

My mom's birthday was Oct. 27th.

My boss gave me a three day weekend (whoops!).

I hadn't been to Oregon in a year and a half, so I figured it was time.

I bought a plane ticket and flew home for a weekend!
Everyone picked me up at the airport, which was awesome! Lots of hugs and smiles and hugs. I have such a cool family.

I got to see my baby sister (who is not so baby - she's 16 and awesome) perform in her final marching band competition of the season. She's a drum major and is seriously great at it. While I haven't done anything related to marching band in 8 years, it was fun to see her perform (and brought back some fun memories). We had lots of fun screaming and cheering for S and the marching band!

I got to see both of my brothers as well, which was great. My youngest brother spoke in church and did a great job. My younger brother spent the a lot of the weekend grading for the classes he TA's - we commiserated together on our TAing experiences.

Mommy and I got to play together all day Monday. We even carved pumpkins and roasted the seeds. And then we went out for her birthday dinner that night to PF Changs. (Happy birthday, Mom!)

We all played Apples to Apples together and spent a lot of time laughing at our own silliness. (That's one of my favorite things to do with my family - play games and then laugh because we're all silly.)

It was a fantastic, albeit short, weekend. I'm so glad that my family's just a short flight away!
And I'm grateful that I get to see them again at Thanksgiving!

Isn't family the best?

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