It's 2012!
Yes, I realize it's been 2012 for a week. I'm a little behind.
I'm not really one for "New Year's Resolutions." Mostly because I either break them or forget about them.
But I have two resolutions this year:
Have a Babyand
Be a Mom
I swear, I'm not cheating.
Ok, maybe a little.
But, in my defense, this pregnancy has been the hardest physical thing I have ever gone through. And every day, I wonder how on earth I will get through another 24 hours. There have been many tears, hospital/ER trips, I have been off work and on bed rest for a month and a half, I've lost 10-15 lbs, I've been on many different medications, I have a long list of foods that are horrible to throw up (surprisingly, not every food is equally horrible to throw up), and the headaches, vomiting and nausea are debilitating.
Many well-meaning people keep reassuring me that it'll get better and it'll be worth it. Neither of these phrases bring me much comfort.
What has really brought me comfort is a conversation I had with my friend M over Halloween. She has also had very difficult pregnancies and is very empathetic to all of my challenges. We were talking about the worst parts and M said, "but then I think about the Savior and all He suffered for me. Can't I sacrifice my own comfort and well being for 9 months for this little one? It's nothing in comparison!"
Yes. I can sacrifice one more day, one more hour, one more minute, of my own comfort for this perfect little guy. I still have to keep myself healthy (you know, hydrated and stuff) so that this little guy can also be healthy. But the discomfort, the exhaustion etc. I can sacrifice and suffer knowing that my Savior sacrificed and suffered so much more for me.
And in 4 and a half more months, when I meet this little man, I'm sure it'll be worth it.
Yes, I realize it's been 2012 for a week. I'm a little behind.
I'm not really one for "New Year's Resolutions." Mostly because I either break them or forget about them.
But I have two resolutions this year:
Have a Babyand
Be a Mom
I swear, I'm not cheating.
Ok, maybe a little.
But, in my defense, this pregnancy has been the hardest physical thing I have ever gone through. And every day, I wonder how on earth I will get through another 24 hours. There have been many tears, hospital/ER trips, I have been off work and on bed rest for a month and a half, I've lost 10-15 lbs, I've been on many different medications, I have a long list of foods that are horrible to throw up (surprisingly, not every food is equally horrible to throw up), and the headaches, vomiting and nausea are debilitating.
Many well-meaning people keep reassuring me that it'll get better and it'll be worth it. Neither of these phrases bring me much comfort.
What has really brought me comfort is a conversation I had with my friend M over Halloween. She has also had very difficult pregnancies and is very empathetic to all of my challenges. We were talking about the worst parts and M said, "but then I think about the Savior and all He suffered for me. Can't I sacrifice my own comfort and well being for 9 months for this little one? It's nothing in comparison!"
Yes. I can sacrifice one more day, one more hour, one more minute, of my own comfort for this perfect little guy. I still have to keep myself healthy (you know, hydrated and stuff) so that this little guy can also be healthy. But the discomfort, the exhaustion etc. I can sacrifice and suffer knowing that my Savior sacrificed and suffered so much more for me.
And in 4 and a half more months, when I meet this little man, I'm sure it'll be worth it.
I'm so sorry you are so sick! I always think women who say that being pregnant is the best experience in the world are a little crazy! I don't do pregnant very well either, and it is hard when you feel like other people just don't get how insanely hard it can be on your body, your spirit, your emotional well-being, your relationships. What a great perspective to take though ... the Savior's atonement covers this pain too. Hang in there!
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