Living the Dream

I probably shouldn't post late at night because I'm even more crazy during late hours, but whatevs.

Story: We haven't had internet here in our lovely trailer. We also haven't had the laptop in our lovely trailer because the battery is fried (aka the computer must be plugged in to work) and our power cord is fried. Tonight we went over to D's grandma's and low and behold she had the same power cord for Grandpa's old laptop! She said that yes of course we could borrow it indefinitely. And then we found the password for her wireless! And now we have a computer (as long as it stays plugged in) and internet in the lovely trailer! Thank you Grandma!

Ok, on to the real stuff.

I like my job. I like my co-workers.

I'm terrified of getting stuck.

It's a steady paycheck, D and I both get benefits, it's a good place to work. But it's totally numbing to me.

I need theatre.

But I don't know how to get into the theatre scene here. Like seriously, no clue.

I'm terrified that if I don't go to grad school next fall, I will settle and never use my degree. Which would be like losing a part of myself. Especially because theatre is so connected to my testimony.

Yet, how am I (slash how are we) going to be able to afford grad school?

Yet, how can I (slash how can we) afford to not send me to grad school?

And we still don't have a car.

It's been a year now.

I feel like there is so much to do and no time to do it in.

But, I'm happy to have the laptop working again because I've been able to listen to The Last 5 Years tonight. So, to close on a happy note: the end.