Could it be?

Am I truly blogging again?

So it would appear.

Did you miss me?

I was sitting here at home being grateful for a paid day off in the midst of all the craziness that has been my life lately. I feel very grateful and very blessed while at the same time very overwhelmed and very unsure.

Two months ago, D and I were in a car accident. We were rear-ended like 2 blocks from our apartment. While initially it seemed like the damages to our car and to ourselves were slight, as time has gone on, new problems keep manifesting themselves. We just picked up our car from the shop this week and it is now all fixed, but the repairs were much more extensive than we thought they were going to be. I have also been experiencing a lot of pain as a result from the accident. My head was turned to the left when we were hit, causing different kind of injuries. A trip to the ER right afterward revealed that I had a concussion and muscle damage. I took a couple days off of work to heal, but just didn't seem to improve any at all. The headaches got worse. The pain got worse. I started physical therapy and there's significant soft tissue damage and nerve damage as well. I asked my therapist how long of a process this healing-thing would be and she said it's going to be quite long-term. I have to wear a C-collar when I'm not at work. My doctor is also concerned that there might be a bulged disk because I'm experiencing tingling (pins and needles) in my left hand and pain radiating down my arm. All from a simple rear ending. I don't know what my recovery process will be like or how long it will take, honestly. They're still trying to figure out everything that's wrong as a result of the accident. So I'm a little overwhelmed and unsure about what my future looks like as far as recovering from this is concerned.

I don't mean to be all "my life is so hard!" because really, we have been so blessed through all of this. We had a rental car the entire time our car was in the shop. I can still do my job (thank goodness I'm a banker and not a teller b/c I definitely am not able to stand all day). We have medical coverage. The accident was completely not our fault, so every cost is being covered. My boss has been really good about giving me the same day off every week for PT. The C-collar was really great at getting me through airport security really quickly when Mom and I went to Phoenix to go visit Gma. D has been really wonderful at taking care of me and making sure that I'm comfortable. While I'm way more limited in what I can do (piano playing is painful, lifting anything is out of the question, etc.) I am very aware of the Lord's hands and feel quite blessed.

That being said, having a headache every day for two months blows. I think that part is more difficult for me to handle than all of the other pain and discomfort. But, the not being able to sleep because I can't get comfortable for more than an hour thing sucks pretty bad too. It's definitely a close second.

So that's what D and I are up to. :) And in thinking about it being November and close to Thanksgiving (remember Thanksgiving? b/c it seems like every retail store in our area has forgotten it exists...) I just wanted to say that I am grateful.