isn't it about...time?

there's something about sundays that makes me think a lot about family and being connected. maybe it's the whole going to church thing and seeing families and learning about families. who knows. today, it could be a combination of a lot of things.

this sunday was our primary program (kids ages 4-11) and it was awesome. seriously, my favorite sunday of the year. the children were adorable and total rockstars. my favorite quote from the program, "jesus was baptized by george the baptist."

today we sat with the yw president, m, and her two daughters (who are 2 of my laurels) and she said it felt like her family grew. and it made me miss my family, but mostly miss my mom. and it also made just want to adopt her to be my mom. nevermind the fact that i have a mil that lives a stones throw away (literally). i want to adopt m. or, i want her to adopt me. whatevs. i just really feel like i need a mom here. i miss mom hugs.

we had a w-family dessert-fest tonight, so that was more family time (lots more. and it was occasionally awkward. as in i sat there, silently, by myself.). it was announced that d's cousin is pregnant. and we talked about the holidays and spending time together as a w-family.

my fil has been nice to me. it's weird. it makes me feel like he doesn't like me because he's being nice instead of teasing me.

so all of this has got me thinking about families. our little d&l family. our extended families. our future family. and right now, i just feel heavy thinking about it. not excited or scared, but just heavy.

so, diagnose me. what does this mean?