What's your objective?

Let me recap the last few days for you.

Thursday I was asked if I wanted a 40/hr week position. At a different store. I said that I needed time to think and talk to my husband about it. They gave me until Monday.

Since then, I have been weighing and balancing every option. What's best for me? What's best for my family? And I did not know. There were just so many variables! I would start leaning one way and a voice in my head would say nope, that's not right so I'd have to go back to the drawing board.

Needless to say, I was stressed.

Last night, D and I were laying in bed and I was still wrestling with the decision.

Then, I had an epiphany. I don't have an objective.

In school, with shows, I always have had an objective; something I'm working towards. Since we moved out here, I've had nothing. I've just been existing. I haven't been working toward anything. I've just been working.

So, D and I figured out our objectives last night. What are we working towards? What do we have to do get there?

I want to be doing theatre, not banking. I'm not going to stop being a teller though because I get benefits and a pay check. But, I sent out emails to 4 different theatre companies and so far have heard back from 2. I am going to audition for another in the beginning of March. Theatre is what I want, it's my objective, so I'm going to work for it and make decisions accordingly.

It's like this whole experience has been a catalyst for me to take charge of my life. I prayed for more hours, but Heavenly Father knew what I really needed was to take charge of my life and do what makes me happy.